You may have noticed by now The Inner Interior is updated naturally, there are no special days I post because my way of living is not “lined up” like a perfectly scheduled monetized blog. If you are a new reader, please know everything written here is shared from my heart and always from my direct experience. There are weeks when I share every day and then some when I only feel prompted to share once a week. Either way, it is my intention to share in hopes it may provide you or someone you know with the hope and inspiration that moves us all forward. I am not interested in teaching anyone anything, it is my knowing you already have the answers within you….sometimes we just need to read a story to make those answers bubble to the surface. So, with that said, today’s post is straight from heart…..
When I was a little girl I would gallop through open fields on my pony with wind flowing through my hair, dirt on my face and a longing to understand how I was going to succeed in this so called life I was experiencing. The school I attended was a magnet school so our curriculum was slightly different than others schools and we were constantly encouraged to swim in the sea of creativity. During a pep rally one afternoon the entire school gathered in the cafeteria for a motivational talk. By the end, we were all shouting S-U-C-C-E-S-S! The only thing I was certain of at that point was that I would never spell success wrong, ever. Now, twenty-five years later, I am beginning to understand the meaning of success for me and it can be summed up in one very simple yet profound word; consciousness.
As I look at my life today, I am grateful for everything that has taken place and the lessons that have led me to my version of success even though it is far from complete. I can’t help but think being successful is an ongoing process that is continuously taking turns jumping from one infinite hopscotch box to the next. Today, I see success as my contribution to life and making it a better place. How does that happen exactly? For me, it stems from one word and that is consciousness. Developing my consciousness is something I never thought was something I would do mainly because I didn’t even know what it meant. It took a core shaking divorce to bring me to my knees and open my interior life to a new design. My mentor, Moe Ross led me to the door of consciousness and I have never looked back. I found myself required to take the steps necessary to evolve into the higher version of the little girl on the horse who so longed for knowing who she was, and what her purpose was on earth and that is exactly what I have done ever since.
I have come to know success isn’t about awards, recognition, or ribbons. The amount of followers or friends I have on social media does not matter to me one single bit. For me, success is contributing to the world in the highest sense of being, not doing, from my center. Being allows me to be led from my heart as opposed to doing; which for me, is always from my concept filled mind. I have also come to realize this is not as easy as flipping a switch to on from off. The journey of discovering what success feels like is down right hard and it is my practice every day to ensure I do not slip back into old patterns that block my consciousness from rising to a place where my experience in life is one of joy and love.
Success (for me) looks a little like this:
As I wake up every morning consciously remembering “I” am not in control of my day, there is a source beyond my understanding and I am divinely guided in every situation.
The ability to read a “negative” response or email does not disturb me, I can move on naturally without repeating a mantra or sitting quiet for some time to let the feeling go.
Sharing my story of experience and hope with other women to support them when they may not have anyone or anything to hold onto.
Seeing through appearances – looking deeper inside someone and knowing they are not what they appear to be when my mind sees them as “mean”.
Knowing nothing is the answer- clothes, candles, makeup or fans are not the “answer”. The only answer is consciousness and how I will use that to fulfill my calling.
Allowing life to flow rather than making it go in the direction I want it to. Letting go of the life I envision for the life I was meant to live ever since I was born is a jump worth taking.
Obviously there are many more and as much as I would like to share them with you I do keep some of them sacred until the seed is in full bloom. Consciousness is a constant state of evolvement and I know enough to know I have a long way to go.
For today, I can say I have experienced success through a project I am working on with my mentor, and I cannot wait to share it with you when the time is right.
So, the girl who once lived to feel the wind in her hair and a sense of divine purpose is holding steady to success as consciousness, rising and knowing the deeper I become connected to my inner guide, the more fulfilling my life will be.
This post is not intended to teach you anything, it is simply a sharing of my experience in hopes it may inspire you to join me on the journey if you have ever felt the desire to walk a different way.