Have you ever heard if you leave your nets new ones will appear? My heart whispered to me for so many years and I was given countless opportunities to leave my nets but I chose to stay in bed with fear and control. After all, I lived the American Dream. I had a successful husband, a nice house that resembled an art gallery, maids, drivers and VIP access to just about any event anywhere in the world. From the outside it appeared I had it all but in fact I had nothing. My core was gone, my mind full of thoughts that made me tremble and very little meaning in my life which I later began to crave.
My story isn’t one where I jumped out and hoped for a miracle. I was thrown out, softly. With a divorce on my plate I knew I had a hard road ahead of me. I was lost without him, without us. It is my understanding that when life throws us a hard ball we have two choices, to either make it soft and mold it into the ball we want, or throw it back into the field and forget about taking a closer look. I chose to soften, lean in and walk through the dark days and nights.
Luckily, I had help. I had Moe. I had a life coach that lived with me for months to help me stay mindful and get back on my feet. Now, four years later I am able to stand on my own and go to the silent places within for my answers and guidance.
After many months and years of practicing going “within” for my reassurance, supply and love I have come to a place where I can share my experience, strength and hope with others. It is clearer to me than ever that sharing my story is my purpose, my assignment here on earth which has been birthed in the form of my book, Lost on the PGA and European Tours that will officially be released on January 1, 2016.
I have come to know that there is a net within all of us and it is always open and ready to support us. It is my higher self. It is greater than me. It is what gets me up every morning. It is my passion. It is what drives me. It is what makes all of us who we are behind the make-up,clothes, instagram accounts and financial status.
My message to you is simple, if you find yourself wondering why life has unfolded the way it has lean in….love the pain, create a net of compassion for yourself no matter what. When your mind wants to take control let go consciously. Let go again and again because when it comes to the mind, nothing of a deeper meaning is going to make sense. Release the need to understand everything and watch your assignment show up.
The biggest lesson I have come to learn is that turning pain into purpose is essential for total healing. The only way I can help others is to do the work myself and it is in moments like this I am so grateful to have listened to that still, small voice inside of me.
As long as we are aware we can be of service and when we are of service to others, we shift the vibration of the world.